Jeee suuuuis malaaaadeeeee

The reason I post so much, is because I'm sick at home and bored. I'm just going through all of my computer files, just cleaning up and stuff, and organising.


I know I should be drinking tea, water, fruit juice or some dairy-shit, but I just crave coffee so bad. I've been reading, watching tacky Dutch soaps (which I secretly really enjoy), 'Coffeetime' (Koffie Tijd, a Dutch morning program, also tacky), Tell Sell (which I don't enjoy at all), Dora the Explorer. The only thing I can bare to eat is fruit.
My mother went to Maastricht, and bought me this shirt:

It looks so much better in real and I love it, with jeans and boots and a leather jacket and a scarffffffniccceeeeeee... I'm gonna do some-a-thang usefull. I have heaps of homework and a room that looks as if it has been hurricane-struck.

The world keeps testing me.

What seems like a perfect day to me today (changes all the time):
















Well I feel like sleeping in, and then wake up slowly to coffee, fruit, yoghurt, cruesli, juice and a cigarette.





















Then clean my room, doing groceries, do my banking. Running erands and such. Meet with a friend and go for coffee inbetween.

















All of this in the kind of outfits Karla runs erands in (Karla's Closet) and that on a mild autumn day, all wrapped up in a roughly knitted scarf (PARK&CUBE).
















Then cook up this orgasmic good pasta dish for my brother and me.
(http://www.joyfulabode.com/2007/11/19/bowtie-ballet-pasta-dish/)





















Have a cup of tea and watch TV. Then go to bed early.



It almost seems like I´m looking forward to a life of organisation, schedules and planning, but on a relaxed rythm... But that will surely after having had 2 weeks of school again. I talked about having trouble getting settled. Well I finally did. Though vacation is almost over.
I'm through with multiple appointments on one day, not knowing what to do and staying up all night doing nothing, lame party's that are supposed to be fun (when you're 'drunk' enough, though), being hung-over, being broke. Having breakfast, lunch, and diner on the weirdest of times not knowing if you should have breakfast, lunch or dinner or just eat something and call it brunch-iner.
I want to go back to school and work again and have money. Wear scarves and boots. Buy a new felt or woven coat, with shiny buttons. Bike with the wind in your face with your music in and your beanie/berret/hat/hoodie over your ears and earphones. Arriving at school with a windy do and red nose. Autumn arrived just in time here.

To bed to bed

I've slept a lot lately but I stil don't feel rested. It takes a week for mee to unwind and fully relax. Summer vacation started 6 weeks ago. I still feel a little uptight or something. These bed-pictures do look peaceful though. I wonder why everybody suddenly makes pictures of their beds. I mean, I suddenly see it a lot, just like tooth-gaps and denim jackets (ok, not that sudden, but definiatley omni-present (almost annoying)). When I move out I want my room to be like picture number 5.

Personalspace

(the dates on most of them don't make sense)

Sudden change of mood: no more escapism

I feel like I need to rest before I can go on adventure, I want to stay at home and read books, play guitar, play with my dog (dogs are better than cats!!!) drink coffee and smoke. With the occasional trip to the beach. The past weeks have been really hectic. When I went out yesterday, for the first time sinds a very long time, I just couldn´t enjoy myself because I still had the restless feeling in my body.